These last days I have felt such a shake-up and such a liberation from terribly constrictive, outdated mindsets that have been telling me that healers look certain ways and do certain things and surely there’s other things that they just don’t do!
I have been taking myself out with this mindset, wrenching myself over the wrack in some instances, because I felt that to be seen and accepted as a genuine healer I must wear white, throw away my Led Zeppelin records and only eat a raw, vegan diet. It’s insane what I’ve been doing to myself!
Through connecting more with my shamanic, animalistic self over the last year, I realize that every step of my journey and every inch of myself is Divine and is part of my whole and part of the beautiful journey I am sailing. Thank GOD I don’t suppress my anger, thank GOD I don’t deny my desire to have a glass of wine and thank GOD I recognize what I am doing every step of the way.
Last night I saw the hilarious and illusion-shattering GANGAJI at Temple Byron and I pretty much pissed myself laughing the whole way through. She affirmed to me how much I do know about illusion and suppression and I felt hugely acknowledged as being a BRIGHT, ALIVE SPIRIT, totally in connection with all the Divine Fire within me.. whatever shade it is. I could not wipe the smile from my face for the relief and understanding that I AM GETTING THIS.
I live in Byron Shire.. and I love it. But around here, there’s a lot of ‘fitting in’ going on in the ‘new age/spiritual’ paradigm, which to me stinks to high heaven of suppression, contradiction and righteousness. Sometimes I get looks from people at the markets if I am wearing a bikini and kaftan. That’s not the outfit of a healer! I have found myself editing my choices due to what people might think and I realize that this is crazy and is curbing my natural, divine self.
No-one can live life like me, and no-one ever will! And so I will live it as I will live it and I will go on walking in certainty that I am hugely gifted as a healer and channel and that my love for humanity and Planet Earth is an unwavering force that I hope to share with all beings!